currently.. LAME

Anxiety follows with announce follows with Evin being STUCK

things that aren't helping me out of my current mood

Anxiety Factor 1-10
1. Meh whatevs
5. Ok.. i can keep it cool, but its there
10. My brain wants to jump out of my head


1. The Zune

Now its like me to throw such a device that brings such joy to me with my car rides, runs, or daily shower, but COME ON.. the program that comes with it (just like your typical itunes) is sloooooow it offers everything but it makes it pretty hard to find that "everything" with how its search engine works and who is recommends.... on my anxiety factor it ranks at a 6.8

2. The Big 21











As none of you know -1 person I am turning the "it's all down hill from here" age of 21 in approximately 14 days... now as I am awesomely stoked beyond belief for this joyous journey to the land of sin..But my family/guests aka friends are ever so slowly sucking the fun out of it.. The being in the dark of where im even staying and who's exactly coming its helping me and is most unboudtably freaking me out..
Location. TI (treasure island) ..rumored.. one room 2 queen beds
Guest List Forsure: me, raul, ryan, mars, jesss
Guest List Maybe: mike, jbone, sam, breana, michelle
Guest List family: dad, uncle t, uncle ken, aunt sue, jeremy, prego becky(uncool), and random cousin of my uncles that ive only met once?
On my anxiety factor it ranks at a 7.9 basically an 8.0

3. Ducks

My "passion" in life as some have said.. do i agree with this YES, but do I want to be known as just having A professional hockey team as my one passion in life.. NO.. but we can talk about this on a later blog.. My Ducks.. after getting their heads out of their water tight butts.. made it to the playoffs and ABSOLUTELY DOMINATED the first place hella hyphy hella retared Sharks of the bay area.. So now second round bigger and better.. the Evil RedCoats aka Red Wings.. arch enemies YES.. hatred toward the team and its fans YES.. and can we beat them/have we beat them? YES.. will be beat them tomorrow.. DONT KNOW and that kiiiiiillllls me..
on my anxiety factor it ranks at a 9.4

4.Her



















Its just her job.. it was one of the many reasons i believe God decided to put on this green earth.. but all bullshit aside (she loves it when i curse) i dig her.. and allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll her problems, fears, quirks, annoyances, screwiness, beliefs, mind games, beauty (inside and out), scheduling, humor, control issues, predictability etc etc etc etc
(just by me writing this down and now with her reading it I can tell her heads filling with warning signs)
on my anxiety factor it's a fluctuation from 1-10 on any given day

5. Me



















Because lets face it under this super manly, chiseled body, ingenious geniusness, undeniably talented, hilariously clever body.... i kinda need to stop being me and start being new me
(but as me and myself and I? know.. saying and doing "night and day"
On my anxiety factor it's a 55 (thats not good)

OK thats not me...

here's me